haha i love a man with (cheesy) humor and (self-generated) confidence….lmao

Vent…Vent…Vent…

You don’t like me huh?  Because I’m not receiving anything from your side, that is what I’m going to assume…I’m up studying for biology right now and I’d probably have to pull an all-nighter.  I’m going to assume that you don’t have any feeling towards me since I haven’t detected any sign from you.  When you realize that you’re the only one feeling anything, it sucks!  Why can you just see it!  I can’t stop talking to you!  I can’t stop thinking about you!  Everywhere I go, whoever I met, I want to bring you up.  This is so embarrassing on so many levels but it is reality.   I’m going to have to tell you soon because I need to relieve myself from this misery.  This misery of uncertainty, this misery of confusion, this misery of coward-ness and this misery of one-sided feeling, I shall escape from after I tell you how I feel.  At this point, I’m almost prepared for you to turn me down and to accept the fact that you don’t like me.  It’s going to hurt like a bitch and more but I have to tell you otherwise I will regret this.  Plus it’s not healthy at all for me to continue to carry all of this feeling on my shoulders like this; it’s way too difficult.  Please when you reject me, please please be kind, I’m not going to ask for much, but just please spare me some dignity.  I’m on the verge on tears right now just thinking about how you’re going to reject me.  Please don’t hurt me too much, like I mentioned once, I’m really scared of being hurt, I was born as such a vulnerable person.  Please minimize your harsh words as much as possible.   You don’t seem like the type who is capable of hurting anyone but I have to go into this expecting the worst.  It will take sometimes for me to recover but I’m looking forward to be your friend one day, if possible.  On the bright side, I will have the whole summer to get over you!  Tomorrow shall be the day, well unless I back down again….haha